I finally gave up and hired the lawyer I went to see on Thursday. I had to give him $1000 to "get started" that scared the hell out of me but what else can I do. Things now are far out of my hands.I can’t really write about what he is going to do for me because I think my ex is reading my Space to get the inside scoop on me. She has enough help with out mine too. One day I will, after THINGS are done
It should make me feel better but inside I feel like even this won’t help at all. I must keep a positive attitude though and hope for the best regardless of my "feelings."
I am going to see if I can get my Son and take him to this old train station where they have steam engines and we can take a 1 hour ride on private tracks. I took him once before and he loved it. A friend of mine might take her two kids too. One of them knows my Son because I took them all fishing a few times too. My Son keeps asking me how they are so he must member them. Then again may be I should just keep it me & him?
School started around here and my neighbor asked me to take some pics of her kids first day of school. I gladly did it for her. I got to be there when her girl got on the bus for the first time (kdgn). Then when she got off the bus we were there to take more pics. They came out great and I printed them out for her on photo paper. I just put new ink cart. in it so they printed out great too. She was so happy to have some thing to remember the special day. Her girl gave me a big hug and thanked me too:)
This made my day but I later felt guilty for doing this for some one else’s kid and not my own Son:( He started school too the same day but I could only call him to "talk" about how his day was, no pic or nothing as cool as that. It is a double edged sword, I love to help and be around kids, but I hate the guilt of not being "allowed" to do much of anything with my own Son. This kind of guilt really gets me down:(…tom g