Hi, I know it’s been a while but I have been busy. I spent the last week looking into how I can see my Son before the trial on 11/18 for the harassment charges. I talked to a few people about how to visit him but they all told me to just wait until then. I did not want to accept this but after getting upset about it I decided it is best not to get into more trouble by pushing my ex too hard. I am patient but sometimes it seems like I am not doing enough.
My ex’s ex called 10/31 to let me know he had my Son for Halloween to go trick or treating. He called me when he was out for me to meet up with them. I had to answer the door for a food delivery and missed the call. I looked at the caller id after I ate just to check and was pissed to see that I got the call the only time I was not by the phone. Another chance missed! I sent him a package of goodies and a card by UPS and it should have been delivered 10/31 daytime. I don’t know if he got it. Maybe she did not give it to him. I will have to ask him when I see him. I miss him so much it hurts to have to be patient, it is not at all easy or fair.
I was invited out over the week end but opted not to. I thought about it last night and thought it was dumb not to go out and have some fun! Out of curiosity I went to a bar tonight and had a few beers. It’s not all that people make it out to be. I felt like a fish out of water. I used to go out all the time to dance and hang out with friends. I have lost touch with the friends and my body won’t let me move the way I want it to. I can but I would have to suffer with pain for a few days. It’s not worth it. It was a off night for the club/bar scene so I will have to try again on a Friday night to get a better view of the night life of today. I have not really been out-out for longer than I can remember. I never drank or anything, don’t like the taste of drinks or even soda so I would just drink ice water. If I did drink it was as soon as I got there, then stop and go to water or juice or some thing non alcoholic. I just loved to have fun with friends dancing. I miss the good old days. I need more GOOD friends to hang out with.
I will try not to be away so long, it must get old visiting to see whats new and seeing the same old stuff. Sorry for leaving that horrible baby killers pic up for so long too. As you can now see it its gone. Bye for now and thanks for visiting me!!!…tom g